Clarifying Impressions

Most of my posts are positive and upbeat.  Although that predominantly is how my life is going, it does not mean that there aren't times of pain and grief.  Both come unexpectedly and predictably--unexpectedly at the sight of an older couple growing old together; or predictably when thoughts surface of regrets, or the awareness that a special occasion is near.  I can be surrounded by people, yet alone, because my lifelong companion is not beside me.  Since where I put my focus determines my outlook and attitude, I choose to focus on moving forward rather than getting mired down in that which only pulls me into emotional distress.  When my guard is down, and I slip into a negataive tailspin, it can be very painful and disheartening.  During those times, drawing inward is the worst thing I can do, yet it is the easiest.  Like quicksand, it can draw me deeper and deeper, hence getting out requires a bigger effort.  Thankfully, thus far I've been able to pull myself out.